It has Been a While

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J.M.J.



Good morning. It has been a while, hasn't it? My goodness, I've taken a very long break from writing. Writing is uncomfortable for me. It forces me to be honest with myself, and with my audience, and that kind of hurts. Remember my last post? It's okay if you don't; I wrote it last summer. My last blog post was full of hurt. I stopped writing because I was tired of feeling pain. But guess what? I have a story to tell, and I will not be silent anymore.

How have you been? How are you feeling? 

I'm a little tired. I've been having trouble sleeping. I really abhor wasting time, so I decided to utilize this time when I'm awake too early.

Writing used to be a comfort for me. When I was little, I started writing in a diary. I thought it was cool. Now, journal writing is something seen as important for your mental health, at least for women. It's probably helpful for men too, but sometimes they get their feelings out in different ways.

I've been going through a lot of healing. And I still am. For the rest of my life, I will be healing. But for now, the healing process is intense. I really don't enjoy it. And yet, it is necessary for me to go through this in order to become the best version of myself.

I really don't like talking about myself. I will, however, do so, if it's going to help you. Here's the thing. I don't know if it is going to help you or not. Life is funny, though. We are not as isolated and alone as we think. Everyone is going through a journey, and a lot of times, they understand what you are going through. One of the greatest tragedies of this age is the illusion that we can't talk to each other. If I tell her what I'm going through, she's not going to like hanging out with me anymore. You have had that thought before, right? If she doesn't like you anymore because you shared your thoughts, then you can find someone else to talk to.

I promise that no matter what, Jesus is there to listen. He loves you so much. You are His beloved daughter or son. That is your identity.

Talk to you soon,
Stephanie

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